So, pretty much the next day, I had a firey drive to help out any way I could, and I finally started doing things I've been putting off for a long time. I have so much art in boxes, piles, and hanging around my house that I'd love to get out into the world and shipped out the door. I didn't realize that I had so much! We're going to be moving to a cheaper (read: smaller) place by the end of this month. I need the space, room for a fresh start, and we all know that sometimes moving isn't cheap. I'm not exactly sure what to do, other than keep listing, talking about it, and hoping for the best. Perhaps I will have some major clearance sales coming up. I'll keep you posted on that. We're not even sure which town we're moving to yet. Is that a little crazy? If there are no job offers by a certain date, we'll probably move to Eugene, where there is family and more job possibilities.
More about this "fresh start" I mentioned. After we get all moved and settled, I see myself wanting to refine and focus my voice as an artist. It's a challenge for me, because I tend to have an "I want a little of everything" personality. Saying yes to one thing, means saying no to lots of other things. In high school, I played every sport, but just good enough to barely make the team. I changed my college major 4 times. If I have a choice between chocolate or vanilla, I'll pick 1/2 & 1/2. ...you get the idea. I'm a little indecisiveness...part free spirit. (although, if I'm being honest, I know that Indecisiveness is usually just the mask that Fear wears) ...plus, add in the fact that I have a ton of ideas. (yes, a literal ton. ...no not really...but almost.)
With all of this, I've come to realize that the people who accomplish things that matter, things that deeply fulfill them and mean something to others, probably had to have at least a smidge of focus, reminding themselves often of their intentions, goals, purpose, and mission. I have an idea of what I want to do. ...but of course, I don't think I'm quite ready to broadcast it publicly until I'm a little more sure.Do any of you have a story of purposely changing, shifting, or refining your life's work? I'd love to hear about it and any thoughts, advice, or comments you might have. Being an artist can feel a little isolating at times, especially when it comes to feedback and kicking around ideas. (I miss college studio days.) Anyway, what are your thoughts?
1 comments:
Good post! I don't have much advice to offer since I'm not very focused myself but I wish you luck with narrowing down your purpose, and joy in carrying it out. :-)
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